Just before he died,
‘Don’t make me go to bed, papa,
And I’ll be good.’
‘Thank Christ, he’s finished.’ Malkie was listening to the silence. ‘Maybe the record’s worn out.’
They all waited a moment longer.
‘Sandra,’ Tich said. ‘Go and tell him we better make a move.’
She looked to Simpsy, who had come off the phone. He nodded. She went out into the hall and knocked at the door of the room, opened it and went in. Mickey Ballater was still sitting in the armchair. He smiled at her. She crossed self-consciously towards him, aware of the movement of her own body.
‘Mickey,’ she said. ‘The boys think you should go now.’
He put his hand up her skirt and she gasped. He left it there, gripping her. She didn’t move.
‘Ah think up there’s still a kennel for you, Sandra. Ah know a couple of ways tae let the animal out. You phone that number Ah gave you. When Ah get down.’
She nodded. He released her.
‘Tell Simpsy to bring the car to Skirving Street. The rest of us are walkin’ round tae Dow’s.’
As she went back out, he stood up and flexed, testing his side. It would do. He felt for the knife they’d got him, practised taking it out. He replaced it and smiled to think that the only other thing beside it in his pocket was his banker’s card, like a repeating egg being endlessly hatched out into money by its mother. He went through and told Malkie to carry his case.
It had stopped raining. The dark wetness of the street was like a whetstone for his memory, sharpening his sense of himself. Out of such moments of windy bleakness his hardness had been honed, a defiant sense of style that gave fear a dramatic form. He felt now he had been right not to settle for a hired car out of here. He didn’t drive, and being chauffeured away would have been too much of a come-down, as if he couldn’t look after himself. He could. He would leave here as he had lived here, on his own terms.
Samuel Dow’s reinforced his mood, bringing back the feeling he had had so often as a boy learning to drink in Glasgow pubs, of taking part in your own western. The big bar was busy. Mickey enjoyed standing there knowing he was the man, buying drinks for awe-struck attendants and unafraid of anybody. But he was checking it just the same.
It didn’t take him long to notice a face he knew. He was sure the man had seen him because the impression that he hadn’t was being given off too strongly. The lifting of a pint didn’t need so much concentration. He was reading the beer as he drank it. It was Macey. With him was the one who had got the beer shampoo from Panda Paterson. Mickey sent Tich to tell Macey he wanted to see him.
Macey came across reluctantly.
‘Mickey,’ he said, nodding. ‘How’s it goin’?’
‘What time is it?’ Mickey asked.
Puzzled, Macey looked at his wrist and told him. Mickey consulted his own watch.
‘Some of his information’s accurate anyway,’ Mickey said to the others.
They were laughing.
‘Look, Mickey. Ah told you as soon as Ah knew. Ah canny help it if he’s topped himself. Ye know?’
‘What you doing here?’
‘Ah have a drink here about once a week. Wi’ ma wee mate. Sammy.’
‘Oh aye. Sammy. That’s the one that wears the McEwan’s brylcreem.’
He described the incident in the Crib briefly to the others. They all looked across at Sammy, whipping him with their laughter. Sammy nailed his eyes to the bar in front of him, his hand too shaky to risk lifting his drink. Macey was fidgeting as if he wanted to get away, but he made no move.
‘What about yer train, Mickey?’ Simpsy asked.
‘It’s a five-minute job in the car tae get there, isn’t it?’ Mickey said.
‘Ah’ll go across an’ get it started,’ Simpsy said. ‘It sometimes takes the huff.’
He went out.
‘Mickey.’ Macey seemed poised between the desire to ingratiate himself and the fear of offending. ‘You gettin’ a train at Central?’
‘Why?’
‘Mickey. Don’t tell them Ah told ye. But they’re after you. They’re out lookin’.’
‘Who are?’
‘Baith Cam Colvin an’ John Rhodes.’
A taxi-driver had come into the bar. He was shouting that there was a taxi for Mr Olliphant. He crushed past them to consult with one of the barmen.
‘Ah thought they might be,’ Mickey said.
‘Ah know there’s some o’ them at Central an’ some at the airport.’
Mickey was thoughtful.
‘Jesus, Mickey,’ Malkie said.
‘This is a bloody liberty,’ the taxi-driver was saying. ‘He definitely said Sammy Dow’s.’
‘This isny the only Sammy Dow’s,’ the barman said. ‘Maybe the one at Queen Street Station.’
‘Two minutes from a taxi-rank?’ the driver said. ‘Why would they phone a taxi from there? Give us a break.’
‘But they’re not everywhere,’ Mickey said and went across to the taxi-driver.
The others watched him in discussion with the driver. The driver didn’t seem keen. But he accepted some notes and was pacified. He came over and picked up Mickey’s case.
‘Always do the unexpected,’ Mickey said and winked at Malkie.
He was already on his way out when Macey spoke.
‘Be seein’ you, Mickey,’ he said.
‘Aye.’ Mickey didn’t look back. ‘If you’ve got the Jodrell Bank telescope, ye might.’
The driver put Mickey’s case in the luggage compartment and Mickey got in the back. Before they could pull away, Simpsy had run across to them and tried to open the offside door of the cab. It wouldn’t open.
‘That door’s buggered, pal,’ the driver said.
Simpsy contented himself with waving and mouthing something and Mickey didn’t bother to wave back.
‘Edinburgh road,’ the driver said through the opened glass panel. ‘We better take the Kingston Bridge.’
In the back, Mickey was taking an unemotional farewell of Glasgow as they came off the sliproad and headed up to the Kingston Bridge. The lights of the city around him evoked no nostalgia. He was neutrally picking out areas that he knew when the driver braked suddenly. A car, which had overtaken them, was pulled up at the parapet of the Bridge, hazard lights flashing.
‘The mug canny stop there,’ the driver said.
‘Neither can we,’ Mickey said. ‘Shift!’
‘Ah’ll just see whit the problem is,’ the driver was saying and jumped out.
In that moment Mickey knew. In the pretence of the taxi-driver the whole treachery crystallised. His own past violence was like a prompter in his head. His life might have been a rehearsal for this moment, he saw it so clearly, how the other car would pull up behind them. When it did, he tried to open the offside door of the cab to give himself space. It wouldn’t budge. In here he had no chance.
He kicked open the other door and dived out, pulling out the knife as he emerged. The open door was less a shield than a weapon against him. He shut it with his body, backing against it.
In the whipping wind above the bleak lights of the city he found the small space he was left with. The cars were parked tight, the taxi further out into the motorway than the others. To his right, Cam Colvin was waiting with two others. To the left there was John Rhodes with one hander.
Mickey dived to his left. He feinted at Rhodes’ companion and, as the man moved back, swung at Rhodes who had started to come in. He struck Rhodes’ left arm, but with his right hand Rhodes caught the back of Mickey’s head and rammed his face against the concrete of the parapet. Mickey tried to struggle through the blood but already knew himself beaten. In an instant his long-nurtured sense of himself dissipated like a dream.
Knowing himself about to die and, fighting against the nausea of unconsciousness, his thoughts weren’t of regret or fears for family but of the bitter images of his failure to be harder, of Macey looking innocent, the taxi-driver jumping out, Simpsy mouthing through the glass of the window, ‘Cheerio, Big Man.’ He had a flash of Cam’s face, cold as a talking statue, saying, ‘You didn’t take this place serious enough,’ before he was hoisted on to the parapet and fell.