I said to my mother, “Nothing changes in the Poldoreys. Here it seems just the same as it ever was.”
“Yes. People die and get born. … You remember old Reuben Stubbs in the cottage near Branok Pool?”
I started as I always did at the mention of that place.
“Old Reuben, of course. He was quite a character, and what of his daughter? Jenny, wasn’t it?”
“That’s what I am going to tell you. Reuben died before you were married.”
I remembered him. An unkempt old man who always seemed to be collecting the wood or beachcombing. I had always felt there was something uncanny about him. He glared at all who came near his cottage as though he feared they would take something from him. Jenny, his daughter, was what they called in these parts “pisky-mazed.”
“I was going to tell you about Jenny,” went on my mother. “She was always a little strange, remember … going round talking to herself … singing, too. If you spoke to her she’d look scared and turn away. Well, she went very strange after her father died. She lived on in the cottage. Your father said we should just leave her alone. She was harmless. She kept her place clean. She always had and after her father died it was quite sparkling. She does a little work at the farms when they want extra help. She’ll give a hand at anything. There was nothing wrong with anything she did. It was just that she was a little strange. Well, what do you think? She had a baby.”
“She married?”
“Oh no. Nobody knows who the father was. There was a man who came to do hedging and helped the farmers. He was one of those itinerant laborers … so useful at haymaking and harvest and planting and so on. He used to talk to her and she didn’t seem to be scared of him. We think it must have been this man. Well, he went off and later she had the baby. Born about the same time as Rebecca. We all wondered what would happen, but we need not have done. It changed her completely. It brought her back to normality. No mother could have cared more for a child than she did hers. The change is miraculous. Did you see her cottage when you went to the pool?”
“I … I don’t go down there very much.”
“You might see her about the town … always with the baby.”
“I’m glad she’s happy,” I said. “What was the verdict of the town? I can guess Mrs. Fenny’s.”
My mother laughed. “Sitting on the Seat of Judgment, of course. Well, that’s her way. And it doesn’t make much difference to Jenny.”
I could understand how Jenny’s life had changed. I had my own child.
The summer passed; it was autumn. Christmas came. The Pencarrons spent it with us.
My parents tried to make it a very special Christmas because I was back and there was now a new member of the family and it would be the first Christmas she was really aware of.
She was nearly two years old now. I could hardly believe it was so long since I had seen Ben. I still thought of him constantly. In fact, more than ever. There had been the excitement of coming home and being reunited with my family; and now that I had settled into this routine, memory was more acute. I had judged him harshly. He was ambitious. I had always known that. He wanted money and power. It was a very common masculine trait. He had to win. My refusal of him must have been the first real defeat he had ever suffered. I could see it all so clearly now. He was determined to fail in nothing else. His search for gold would be successful for he had already found it on another man’s land. And because of Lizzie that land was not out of reach. I could understand it all so well. I knew that I could never be really happy without him. I should always be haunted by the thought of what I had missed. I accepted what he had done for when one loved one loved for weakness as well as strength. I tried to throw myself into the Christmas spirit.
Rebecca was talking now. She called herself Becca and everyone took up the name.
It was touching to see her eyes alight with wonder when the Yule log was brought in and the house decorated with holly, box and bay. Red-faced and flustered, Mrs. Penlock was busy in the kitchen. Rebecca was a special favorite with her and the child seized every opportunity of going down to the kitchen. I did not encourage this because Mrs. Penlock could never resist popping things into Rebecca’s mouth for she had a conviction that what everyone needed was “feeding up.”
My mother and I decorated the Christmas tree with the fairy doll on top which was to be Rebecca’s and the jester in cap and bells beside her which was for Pedrek.
We still made the Christmas Bush, which had been part of the decorations before the coming of the tree. It was two wooden hoops fastened to each other at right angles and the frame was covered in evergreens and apples. It was hung up and any pair of the opposite sex meeting under it were allowed to kiss. We had mistletoe as well as the Kissing Bush in the kitchen, which I believe gave great delight to them all, and the stable men often came in to try to catch the young maids, while Mrs. Penlock looked on, purring and not objecting to a kiss for her own august self, because of the time of the year, she said.
There were the carol singers and the poor who came begging with their Christmas bowls. There was the wassail. We kept up the old Cornish customs because my father—though he himself was not Cornish—took a great interest in the old Celtic ways, and as a matter of fact knew far more about the ancient laws of the Duchy than the Cornish themselves.
He encouraged the Guise Dancers because they had existed before the coming of Christianity, and consequently we had dancers in the neighborhood who visited all the big houses in turns and gave performances during the year. The children clapped their hands with glee to watch them and to see the conflict between St. George and the dragon.
In the morning we went to church and came home to the traditional goose and plum pudding; the tree was stripped of its gifts and there was something for everyone. It was wonderful because of the children and I had rarely seen such contentment as that on the faces of the Pencarron parents and their daughter.
Justin was, as they said, “settling in,” but I guessed it was not easy for him to fit in with the quiet country life. It was expecting too much. Gervaise could never have done it. I hoped fervently that it would always remain as it was now for Morwenna and her parents.
When the children, exhausted by the joys of Christmas, could no longer keep their eyes open they went to bed and Rebecca’s last words before she fell into a deep sleep were: “Mama, may we have Christmas tomorrow?” And I knew that it had been a success.
So the time passed.
During the winter Jenny Stubbs’s baby died. It was a calamity which touched the whole neighborhood. Even Mrs. Fenny was sorry. It always amazed me how people who deprecated others, largely because they were not like themselves, and have little sympathy with their minor predicaments, will suddenly change when real tragedy strikes. Everyone was sorry for Jenny Stubbs. It was so tragic. Her baby had developed a sore throat and in a few days was dead.
Poor Jenny! She was dazed and heartbroken. My mother went to the cottage with a basket of special food for her and to offer comfort.