He said now to Peter: “A price for everything, you are right, and a duty, but the duties lie heavier on some than on others. I have never been a nay-sayer and I have already ordered the dwarfs to brew an ale to celebrate a victory at the Autumn Fair, but accidents can happen. I may fall off my horse and be trampled.”
We smiled at that. He was a superb horseman, his horse, a big chesnut called Guinea, the surest-footed in the city’s stables. He smiled as well, but went on:
“Or die of eating Alton’s ailing cattle. If any such thing should happen, Peter, I leave you a duty, to look after Luke.”
“I can look after myself,” I said.
“I don’t doubt it, but a wise man takes help where he can. As you know, there are some among those who have acclaimed me who do not wish me well. It did not please them when the Spirits crowned Luke. They are quiet just now because they have no choice. But if I were killed in battle . . .”
Peter nodded. “I follow that.”
I said: “Watch whom you ride with, Father. The men of Alton may not be the only danger.”
“Good advice, but I am already watching. That is part of being a Prince: one’s eyes do not get much rest. And the more so in a case like mine, a man born common and chosen Prince because others with better claims could not resolve their quarrel.” He looked at Peter. “You will see to this?”
“I will see to it,” Peter said.
• • •
The person who was bitterly aggrieved by what had happened at the Seance, and showed it, was my Aunt Mary. When I went to her house, although she did not say anything and I sat down to dinner at her table as I had always done, I could tell her disapproval. It was not that she was sharper with me or smiled on me less—her tongue had always had a roughish edge and her face did not seem to have been made for smiling—but I sensed resentment, anger, in small looks she gave me. I was not surprised by this. Peter meant everything to her, and had since my father divorced her. Peter was my father’s eldest son, born in wedlock, and his natural heir. What the Spirits said meant nothing to her; she would have defied all the Spirits in the universe for Peter’s sake.
I thought that her disappointment and bitterness would lessen with time and for a week or two carried on with my visits as though nothing had happened. Then one day I went to her house following heavy rain. I cleaned my muddy boots on the scraper outside her door but did not do it well enough, and there were dirty footprints on the polished boards of her little hall.
She saw them and tongue-lashed me. It was a thing she had done before, but again I found a difference in the scolding, a note of hatred almost. And she said:
“Even if you are to be Prince of Princes, you can still wipe your boots before you enter this house. Or do you already think we should all be servants, to do your bidding?”
The jibe stung and I felt myself flushing. She finished:
“Take your boots off, wash your hands, and come to the table.”
Gerda the polymuf had heard her, and I was the Prince’s son and heir. I looked at her, my own anger sharp:
“No, thank you. I will eat at the palace.”
And I turned, saying no more, and left her house. I have wondered since whether things might not have fallen out differently if I had contained my rage, accepted the rebuke, and eaten my dinner with her that day. Or if I had done as I intended next morning and gone to make amends. But I thought that when I went she would scold me further and my pride would not bear it. Two days later I saw her in the street. We approached from opposite directions, saw each other but did not show it, and I was torn between the desire to go to her and the fear that she would treat my overture with scorn. We were near the Buttercross and there were boys I knew sitting on the steps there: they would see and probably hear all that happened. So I passed her in silence with the smallest of nods to which she made no acknowledgment.
After that it was, of course, even more difficult to put things right, and with the passage of time, impossible. I missed her, but there were so many things to do that I forgot about her most of the time. For her, though, there were no such distractions. She had never had much to do with her neighbors. When I stopped going to her house—and a little later my father and Peter rode away on the campaign against Alton—she must have been lonely there with no company except the two polymuf maids and her cat. I did not think of that then, though I did later.
If my father’s triumph had turned sour for Aunt Mary, my mother reveled in the change. She had always been a sunny person but was happier than ever in being the Prince’s Lady. She had new dresses made, a dozen at least, in bright silks and satins and brocades, and a polymuf woman whose entire concern was to arrange her hair each day. There were no housewifely duties anymore—a butler saw to everything—and all she need do was look beautiful. She had always had beauty, but as a precious stone is made ten times more splendid by its setting, so hers was enhanced by the things my father lavished on her. She adorned herself to delight him, and he showed his joy in her. He said once when she told him (not seriously, I fancy) that he spent too much on her that it was for this reason only that he had become Prince.
Although there were things to do in which he could not accompany me I still spent a lot of time with Martin. With him I could forget about being the son of the Prince and there were times when, however much I enjoyed my new life, I was glad of this. We rode together—I found a pony for him in the palace stables—and fished for trout and explored the country for miles beyond the city boundaries. Once, deep in a wood, we found a dozen cherry trees laden with fruit. The fruits were so big and juicy, for all the long neglect of the trees, that we thought they might be polymuf cherries, but we ate them no less heartily for that and with no worse result than an ordinary griping that evening from having gorged ourselves.
We had one falling out. It happened in our den under the Ruins. We had arranged to meet there and I was late. I found him reading a book by candlelight. He looked up and greeted me. I asked him:
“What’s that you’ve got?”
Books were rare things—few of the common people could read and not all the nobles—and this one looked strange. Its covers were not stiff but limp, and the shape was odd: higher and wider than usual, but thin. There had been a picture on the front which damp had turned into a meaningless mess of colors, but I could read words across the top: POPULAR MECHANIX. “Popular” I knew, but “Mechanix” meant nothing to me.
Martin said: “I was digging in the rubble at the back of Clegg’s.” That was the baker’s shop in the High Street. “I saw the corner of an old cupboard—I suppose the quake moved whatever was on top of it—and I thought I’d see if there was anything inside. There were only books. Most of them were rotten but this one wasn’t too bad.
There was a strangeness in his manner—part excitement, part something else. I went round behind him to have a look. There was a picture on the page where he had the book open. Because it had faded I could not tell what it was at first. Then I saw and knew what the something else was. It was guilt. The book was a relic from olden days: the picture was a picture of a machine.
I could not tell what kind of machine it was and did not want to. I put my hand over his shoulder, sweeping the book from his grasp. It fell closed on the floor and I put my foot on it.
He said, sharply for Martin: “Don’t do that!”
“A forbidden thing . . .”
“I was only looking at it.”