“Your patience wears thin,” Manfeaster told the throng. “So know that the time to act is now. This pathetic human is the sign. Tomorrow, we march for the river! Tomorrow, let every human heart tremble with fear!”
This, more than anything, whipped them into a frenzy. The goat-men brayed, the hyena-men yipped, goblins laughed and clapped, and the bird-men squawked. Over it all howled the wolf-men, loudest and greatest of them all.
“To your feet,” Silver-Ear said as the two kings began howling to continue the excitement. “Before one loses control and tries to eat.”
The shaman’s hand took her own, and as if she were a child she was led back to the cave. Once inside she collapsed to the cold ground. The bleeding of the wounds on her face had begun to slow, but still the pain remained. Silver-Ear stared at her, then let out a soft grunt. Tied to her fur were thin strips of dried leather, holding small pouches made from skin. From within a pouch Silver-Ear pulled out a collection of leaves.
“Chew this,” she said, offering them to her. Jessilynn put the leaves into her mouth, then carefully bit down. The gashes in her face made any movement agony. The leaves were soft, yet when she chewed they were horribly bitter. Her eyes watered and her chest heaved.
“Do not vomit,” the female said. “Chew, but do not swallow.”
Jessilynn did so, striking the ground several times with her fist to help her concentrate. At last the shaman reached out her paw.
“Spit.”
She gladly did so. Silver-Ear took the disgusting mush, narrowed her eyes at it, and then grunted again.
“Lie on your back.”
Jessilynn slowly settled down, the ground feeling somehow comfortable despite its hardness. More than anything she wanted to sleep. A dim hope in her still clung to the idea that when she awoke in the morning everyone would be gone, and instead Dieredon would be there, cooking her breakfast. She closed her eyes, slowed her breathing.
Silver-Ear pressed the wet glob against her cheek. It was like salt poured into her open wounds, and Jessilynn let out a scream. The female easily held her down, growling at her.
“Stay still,” she snarled.
Jessilynn did so, even as the tears ran down the sides of her face. More of the substance pressed against her cheek. She gritted her teeth, choking down sobs. It burned like fire, but after a moment’s time, the sensation finally started to relent.
“Sleep here,” Silver-Ear said. “I will bring you food in the morning. Remember, step outside this cave, and I promise you nothing but death.”
With that, she was gone. Jessilynn breathed in, breathed out, as the din of roars and growls echoed inside the confines of the cave. Twenty thousand creatures, all ready to feed. They’d march west soon, crossing the Rigon and into the lands beyond. How many innocents would die? She couldn’t begin to guess, but the truth of it made her ache. And who would stand against them? Would Jerico be there? No, he was south in the Citadel, oblivious to the threat. Darius? Dead. The other heroes of old? All dead, all gone. The Wall of Towers was all that was left, and Jerico had made it clear what state they’d been in for years. She doubted things had improved since the Gods’ War. The towers had fallen before, retaken only with Darius’s help. But now?
Now the only paladin to stand against them was her, and she lay marred, broken, and weaponless. Worst of all, she couldn’t help but think it her fault. It didn’t make sense. It didn’t have to. Lost in her fear and pain, it seemed so blatantly obvious. Her pride, perhaps. Her desire to be better than others.
I’m sorry, she prayed as she waited for exhaustion to claim her. I’m sorry, Ashhur. Whatever I did to deserve this, I’m so, so sorry.
The only answer she received was blessed, dreamless sleep.
20
They alternated turns summoning the shadow portals to take them south. Through it all Qurrah remained silent, his nerves never calming despite the fact they crept closer to Ker’s border each passing moment. What did a border matter to men with wings?
“An acceptable loss,” he murmured as they camped that night. “Acceptable. Ashhur help us all.”
Tessanna glanced at him, and he saw the question in her eyes. He shook his head, still not wanting to talk about it. More than anything he felt such an immense betrayal at the words he had heard. When he’d expected death, when he’d deserved it, they’d denied it to him. They’d declared him forgiven. Ever since then, he’d felt changed. He’d tried, in his own meager way, to better understand the mercy and grace Ashhur’s priests had preached. Oh, he often felt he failed to live up to it, but the concept had been there, giving him hope, giving him a glimpse of a future where he could sleep without the weight of a thousand corpses on his conscience. More than anything, he carried hope that it would not be Karak’s arms he went to upon his death. He would not spend eternity in a darkness lit only by Velixar’s glowing red eyes.
And now, when he sought only to help, only to repair, he instead found the angels ready to give him the death they’d declared him free of all those years ago.
“We’re not going to be safe,” Tessanna said, absently tossing kindling onto their fire. “Azariah knows where we live.”
“You think they will come hunting for us?”
Tess shrugged.
“I don’t know. You won’t tell me everything, so I must guess. But something’s wrong, I know that. Mordeina should have felt peaceful, but instead it felt…”
She shook her head, struggling for the right words.
“Like everyone was holding their breath,” Qurrah said.
“Yes, like that. Like everyone must keep one eye on the sky.”
Qurrah thought of the paladins who’d fought in Ashhur’s name, now secluded in their Citadel. What would Jerico think if he walked through those streets? What would he have said if he’d stood there in the middle of the angels’ council and saw them nodding as simple farmers asked for the death of their fellow man?
“If they come for us, you’re right,” he said. “Our home isn’t safe.”
“Then where is?”
Qurrah remembered King Bram’s words when they’d last spoken at the bridge, when Antonil’s army had come marching.
“We first refused to stand by Bram’s side and condemn the angels,” he said. “I think I might be changing my mind…”
Qurrah had never been to the city of Angkar, and now that he had, he wasn’t impressed. Its walls were tall, but Veldaren’s had been taller, and Mordeina had multiple walls built close together to form brutal killing lanes. There were no special defenses, no significant battlements. No, the only thing that impressed Qurrah about the seaport was that it had escaped the Gods’ War so thoroughly unscathed. When other countries and cities had fallen, it had thrived, which spoke to the careful manipulation of its ruler, King Bram Henley.
“The walls will mean nothing to men with wings,” Tessanna said, taking in the city beside him from the worn road leading to the main gates.
“It’s not the walls,” Qurrah said. “It’s who owns them. If we’re under Bram’s protection, and angels come for us, it’d mean war. Harruq won’t let that happen.”
“What if he doesn’t have a choice?”
Qurrah shook his head.
“Then all the more reason for us to be careful.”
She fell silent as they walked down the road, as if deep in thought. Qurrah held her hand, squeezed it tight.
“Must we kill them?” she suddenly asked.
“Who? The angels?”
She nodded. Qurrah sighed.
“I fear we might.”
“I don’t want to kill them. I’m scared to.”
He frowned at his lover.
“Scared? Why?”
She shook her head, and with the way she regressed into herself he knew he would receive no answer. So instead he lifted her hand to his lips and kissed her fingers.