Where are you, honey? Why did you leave the car? Why didn’t you stay with Mom?
Taylor and the trooper stepped up into the ambulance and exchanged glances before Taylor gently put his hand on Denise’s shoulder.
“I know this is hard, but we have to ask you a few questions before we get started. It won’t take long.”
She bit her lip before nodding slightly, then took a deep breath. She opened her eyes.
The trooper looked younger up close than he had from a distance, but his eyes were kind. He squatted before her.
“I’m Sergeant Carl Huddle with the state troopers office,” he said, his voice rolling with the lullaby of the South. “I know you’re worried, and we are, too. Most of us out here are parents, with little ones of our own. We all want to find him as badly as you do, but we need to know some general information-enough to know who we’re looking for.”
For Denise, the words barely registered.
“Will you be able to find him in this storm . . . I mean, before . . . ?”
Denise’s eyes traveled from one man to the other, having trouble focusing on either. When Sergeant Huddle didn’t answer right away, Taylor McAden nodded, his determination clear.
“We’ll find him-I promise.”
Huddle glanced uncertainly at Taylor, before finally nodding as well. He shifted onto one knee, obviously uncomfortable.
Exhaling sharply, Denise sat up a little, trying her best to stay composed. Her face, wiped clean by the attendant in the ambulance, was the color of table linen. The bandage wrapped around her head had a large red spot just over her right eye. Her cheek was swollen and bruised.
When she was ready, they went over the basics for the report: names, address, phone number, and employment, her previous residence, when she’d moved to Edenton, the reason she was driving, how she stopped for gas but stayed ahead of the storm, the deer in the road, how she lost control of the car, the accident itself. Sergeant Huddle noted it all on a flip pad. When it was all on paper, he looked up at her almost expectantly.
“Are you kin to J. B. Anderson?”
John Brian Anderson had been her maternal grandfather, and she nodded.
Sergeant Huddle cleared his throat-like everyone in Edenton, he’d known the Andersons. He glanced at the flip pad again.
“Taylor said that Kyle is four years old?”
Denise nodded. “He’ll be five in October.”
“Could you give me a general description-something I could put out on the radio?”
“The radio?”
Sergeant Huddle answered patiently. “Yeah, we’ll put it on the police emergency network so that other departments can have the information. In case someone finds him, picks him up, and calls the police. Or if, by some chance, he wanders up to someone’s house and they call the police. Things like that.”
He didn’t tell her that area hospitals were also routinely informed-there was no need for that just yet.
Denise turned away, trying to order her thoughts.
“Um . . .” It took a few seconds for her to speak. Who can describe their kids exactly, in terms of numbers and figures? “I don’t know . . . three and a half feet tall, forty pounds or so. Brown hair, green eyes . . . just a normal little boy of his age. Not too big or too small.”
“Any distinguishing features? A birthmark, things like that?”
She repeated his question to herself, but everything seemed so disjointed, so unreal, so completely unfathomable. Why did they need this? A little boy lost in the swamp . . . how many could there be on a night like this?
They should be searching now, instead of talking to me.
The question . . . what was it? Oh, yes, distinguishing features. . . . She focused as best she could, hoping to get this over with as quickly as possible.
“He’s got two moles on his left cheek, one larger than the other,” she finally offered. “No other birthmarks.”
Sergeant Huddle noted this information without looking up from his pad. “And he could get out of his car seat and open the door?”
“Yes. He’s been doing that for a few months now.”
The state trooper nodded. His five-year-old daughter, Campbell, could do the same thing.
“Do you remember what he was wearing?”
She closed her eyes, thinking.
“A red shirt with a big Mickey Mouse on the front. Mickey’s winking and one hand has a thumbs-up sign. And jeans-stretch waist, no belt.”
The two men exchanged glances. Dark colors.
“Long sleeves?”
“No.”
“Shoes?”
“I think so. I didn’t take them off, so I assume they’re still on. White shoes, I don’t know the brand. Something from Wal-Mart.”
“How about a jacket?”
“No. I didn’t bring one. It was warm today, at least when we started to drive.”
As the questioning went on, lightning, three flashes close together, exploded in the night sky. The rain, if possible, seemed to fall even harder.
Sergeant Huddle raised his voice over the sound of the pounding rain.
“Do you still have family in the area? Parents? Siblings?”
“No. No siblings. My parents are deceased.”
“How about your husband?”
Denise shook her head. “I’ve never been married.”
“Has Kyle ever wandered off before?”
Denise rubbed her temple, trying to keep the dizziness at bay.
“A couple of times. At the mall once and near my house once. But he’s afraid of lightning. I think that might be the reason he left the car. Whenever there’s lightning, he crawls into bed with me.”
“How about the swamp? Would he be afraid to go there in the dark? Or do you think he’d stay close to the car?”
A pit yawned in her stomach. Fear made her mind clear just a little.
“Kyle isn’t afraid of being outside, even at night. He loves to wander in the woods by our house. I don’t know that he knows enough to be afraid.”
“So he might have. . . .”
“I don’t know . . . maybe,” she said desperately.
Sergeant Huddle paused for a moment, trying not to push her too hard. Finally: “Do you know what time it was that you saw the deer?”
Denise shrugged, feeling helpless and weak. “Again, I don’t know . . . maybe nine-fifteen. I didn’t check the time.”
Instinctively both men glanced at their watches. Taylor had found the car at 9:31 P.M. He’d called it in less than five minutes later. It was now 10:22 P.M. More than an hour-at the least-had already passed since the accident. Both Sergeant Huddle and Taylor knew they had to get a coordinated start right away. Despite the relative warmth of the air, a few hours in this rain without proper clothing could lead to hypothermia.
What neither of them mentioned to Denise was the danger of the swamp itself. It wasn’t a place for anyone in a storm like this, let alone a child. A person could literally vanish forever.
Sergeant Huddle closed his flip pad with a snap. Every minute now was precious.
“We’re going to continue this later, if that’s okay, Miss Holton. We’ll need more for the report, but getting started with the search is the most important thing right now.”
Denise nodded.
“Anything else we should know? A nickname, maybe? Something he’ll answer to?”
“No, just Kyle. But . . .”
It was then that it hit her-the obvious. The worst possible type of news, something the trooper had never thought to ask.
Oh God . . .
Her throat constricted without warning.
Oh, no . . . oh, no . . .
Why hadn’t she mentioned it earlier? Why hadn’t she told him right away, when she first got out of the car? When Kyle might have been close . . . when they maybe could have found him before he got too far away? He might have been right there-
“Miss Holton?”
Everything seemed to wash over her at once: shock, fright, anger, denial . . .
He can’t answer them!
She lowered her face into her hands.
He can’t answer!
“Miss Holton?” she heard again.
Oh God, why?
After what seemed like an impossibly long time, she wiped her tears away, unable to meet their eyes. I should have told them earlier.
“Kyle won’t answer if you simply call his name. You’ll have to find him, you’ll have to actually see him.”