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— Good luck, Jimmy Jr roared from the front door, and then he slammed it.

— He shuts the door like a normal man annyway. That’s somethin’, I suppose.

— He’s alrigh’, said Sharon.

Jimmy Sr now said something he’d heard a good few times on the telly.

— D’yeh want to keep it?

— Wha’ d’yeh mean?

— D’yeh — d’you want to keep it, like?

— He wants to know if you want to have an abortion, said Veronica. — The eejit.

— I do not! said Jimmy Sr.

This was true. He was sorry now he’d said it.

— There’s no way I’d have an abortion, said Sharon.

— Good. You’re right.

— Abortion’s murder.

— It is o’ course.

Then he thought of something and he had to squirt his tea back into the cup. He could hear his heart. And feel it.

He looked at Sharon.

— He isn’t a black, is he?

— No!

He believed her. The three of them started laughing.

— One o’ them students, yeh know, Jimmy Sr explained. — With a clatter o’ wives back in Africa.

— Stop that.

Jimmy Sr’s tea was finished.

— That was grand, Sharon, thanks, he said. — An’ you’re def’ny not goin’ to tell us who it is?

— No. — Sorry.

— Never mind the Sorry. — I think you should tell us. I’m not goin’ to kill him or annythin’.

Sharon said nothing.

Jimmy Sr pushed his chair back from the table.

— There’s no point in anny more talkin’ then, I suppose. Your mind’s obviously made up, Sharon.

He stood up.

— A man needs a pint after all tha’, he said.

— Is that all? said Veronica, shocked.

— Wha’ d’yeh mean, Veronica?

— It’s a terrible — Veronica started.

But she couldn’t really go on. She thought that Sharon’s news deserved a lot more attention, and some sort of punishment. As far as Veronica was concerned this was the worst thing that had ever happened the family. But she couldn’t really explain why, not really. And she knew that, anyway, nothing could be done about it. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad once she got used to it.

Then she thought of something.

— The neighbours, she said.

— Wha’ abou’ them? said Jimmy Sr.

Veronica thought for a bit.

— What’ll they say? she then said.

— You don’t care wha’ tha’ lot says, do yeh? said Jimmy Sr.

— Yes. I do.

— Ah now, Veronica.

He sat down.

Sharon spoke.

— They’ll have a laugh when they find ou’ an’ they’ll try an’ guess who I’m havin’ it for. An’ that’s all. — An’ anyway, I don’t care.

— An’ that’s the important thing, Jimmy Sr told Veronica.

Veronica didn’t look convinced.

— Sure look, said Jimmy Sr. — The O’Neill young ones have had kids, the both o’ them. An’—an’ the Bells would be the same ’cept they don’t have anny daughters, but yeh know wha’ I mean.

— Dawn O’Neill had her baby for Paddy Bell, Sharon reminded him.

— She did o’ course, said Jimmy Sr.

He stood up.

— So there now, Veronica, he said. — Fuck the neighbours.

Veronica tried to look as if she’d been won over. She wanted to go up to bed. She nodded.

Jimmy Sr had a nice idea.

— Are yeh comin’ for a drink, Sharon?

— No thanks, Daddy. I’ll stay in tonigh’.

— Ah, go on.

— Alrigh’, Sharon smiled.

— Good girl. Yeh may as well — Veronica?

–’M? — Ah no, no thanks.

— Go on.

— No. I’m goin’ up to bed.

— I’d go up with yeh only I’ve a throat on me.

Veronica smiled.

— You’re sure now? said Jimmy Sr.

— Yep, said Veronica.

Sharon went for her jacket.

— Will I bring yeh home a few chips? Jimmy Sr asked Veronica.

— I’ll be asleep.

— Fair enough.

Jimmy Sr stopped at the front door and roared back to Veronica.

— Cheerio now, Granny.

Then he laughed, and slammed the door harder than Jimmy Jr had.

* * *

Jimmy Sr came back with the drinks and sat in beside Sharon. He hated the tables up here, in the lounge. You couldn’t get your legs in under them. Sharon couldn’t either. She sat side-saddle.

— Thanks a lot, Daddy, said Sharon when she’d poured the Coke in with the vodka.

— Ah, no problem, said Jimmy Sr.

He’d never had a drink with Sharon before. He watched his pint settling, something he never did when he was downstairs in the bar. He only came up here on Sundays, and now.

He turned to Sharon and spoke softly.

— When’s it due an’ annyway?

— November.

Jimmy Sr did a few quick sums in his head.

— You’re three months gone.

— No. Nearly.

— Yeh should’ve told us earlier.

— I know. — I was scared to.

— Ah, Sharon, — I still think you should tell us who the da is.

— You can think away then.

Jimmy Sr couldn’t help grinning. She’d always been like that.

— I thought your mammy took it very well, he said.

— Yeah, Sharon agreed. — She was great.

— Cos she’s a bit ol’ fashioned like tha’. Set in her ways.

— Yeah. No, she was great. So were you.

— Ah, now.

They said nothing after that for a bit. Jimmy Sr could think of nothing else to say. He looked around him: kids and yuppies. He sat there, feeling far from home. The lads would all be downstairs by now. Jimmy Sr had a good one he’d heard in work for them, about a harelip in a sperm-bank. He loved Sharon but, if the last five minutes were anything to go by, she was shocking drinking company.

He noticed Jimmy Jr up at the stools with his pals.

— There’s Jimmy, he said.

— Yeah, said Sharon.

— That’s an awful lookin’ shower he hangs around with.

— They’re alrigh’.

— The haircuts on them, look.

— That’s only the fashion these days. Leave them alone.

— I s’pose so, said Jimmy Sr.

And they stopped again.

There was only an hour to closing time but Jimmy Sr wasn’t sure he’d be able to stick it.

— Wha’ does Jimmy be doin’ up there when he’s shoutin’, yeh know, abou’ bein’ all over Ireland? he asked Sharon.

— He wants to be a D.J.

— A wha’?

— A D.J. A disc jockey.

— Wha’; like Larry Gogan?

— Yeah. Sort of.

— Jaysis, said Jimmy Sr.

He’d had enough.

He’d spotted a gang of Sharon’s friends over past Jimmy Jr and his pals.

— There’s those friends o’ yours, Sharon, he said.

Sharon knew what he was at.

— Oh yeah, she said.

— D’yeh want to go over to them?

— I don’t mind.

— They’d be better company than your oul’ fella annyway, wha’.

— Ah no.

— Go on. Yeh may as well go over. I don’t mind.

— I can’t leave you on your own.

— Ah sure, said Jimmy Sr. — I can go down an’ see if there’s annyone downstairs.

Sharon grinned. So did Jimmy Sr. He still felt guilty though, so he got a fiver out and handed it to Sharon.

— Ah, there’s no need, Daddy.

— There is o’ course, said Jimmy Sr.

He moved in closer to her.

— It’s not every day yeh find ou’ you’re goin’ to be a granda.

He’d just thought of that now and he had to stop himself from letting his eyes water. He often did things like that, gave away pounds and fivers or said nice things; little things that made him like himself.