“How should I know?” was the retort. “Why don’t you ask him?”
“Sasha surely had someone in mind,” she insisted.
It was clear that Kang Mingxun knew who it was, but he only said, “If you really wanted to know, why did you shut him up the other day just when he was about to tell us?”
Mortified, Wang Qiyao argued that she had done nothing of the sort. Why would whatever Sasha said have had anything to do with her?
“If it has nothing to do with you, then why do you want to know so badly?” Kang Mingxun pressed on mercilessly.
His words reopened old wounds: Wang Qiyao felt deeply hurt. Her face turned red. It was only after several minutes that she managed to retort, “You are all in the same league, all black as crows.”
“Remember that Sasha is in the other camp,” Kang Mingxun joked. “He grew up eating Russian bread.”
Wang Qiyao smiled at this peace offering. In reality, they had gone in a circle and ended up where they had started; the feeling that they had actually gotten somewhere after all this running around was but an illusion.
There is, however, something to be said for illusions. Though lacking substance, illusions can serve as the basis on which more substantive structures can be built. Should those structures subsequently collapse, something of substance may nevertheless remain. This situation can be compared to the Viennese Waltz in ballroom dancing: stepping forward and back, back and forward, a couple glides from one end of the floor to the other; when the music stops, they may quite likely wind up in the same place where they began, but they will still have a sense of fulfillment and elation. Playing hide-and-seek with Kang Mingxun created, in part, the same kind of illusion for Wang Qiyao; but she also began deliberately to take the false for the real, twisting meanings to suit her own purposes. Her games drove Kang Mingxun to his wits’ end. She would occasionally refer to the two of them as “us” and Madame Yan and Sasha as “them.” Although this in itself didn’t seem to signify anything terribly scandalous, it still put Kang Mingxun in a bit of a flutter, uncertain whether this was a good thing or a bad thing.
On one occasion, he asked Wang Qiyao, “Why do you put my cousin in the same camp as Sasha? Don’t tell me that she grew up on Russian bread too?”
“Isn’t he her son in-law?” Wang Qiyao giggled. “Of course they’re in the same camp!”
They all laughed, but Kang Mingxun wasn’t sure if he liked her explanation. They were lost at a crossroads groping about in the dark, each boldly tried to capture the other without himself getting caught. Whole narratives, protracted and intricate, were embroidered out of these illusions. When they found themselves alone again, Wang Qiyao made the next move.
“What do you mean by accusing me of pushing your cousin over to Sasha’s side?” she asked.
“Need you ask?” Kang Mingxun retorted. “It is complicated enough without you sticking your nose in. . ”
Each question was framed inside another, which in turn led to another. They were like shadow-boxers; it might look as if the two of them were advancing and retreating in an endless cycle, but by the time they were finished, they would know which of them was the stronger, and who was to be the victor.
They both eagerly volunteered to take care of everything for the group’s afternoon tea parties, but this was a mere pretext to enable them to carry on with their games of ambiguous repartee; these occasions were the murky waters in which they could go fishing unnoticed. During an afternoon or evening of idle chat, there would always be opportunity for them to sneak in one or two coded messages, veiled words that were indeed as slippery as live fish and just as hard to catch hold of. Back and forth they parried, neither acknowledging the real matter at hand; each feigned ignorance of all innuendo while refusing to allow the other to get away with doing the same. As baffling and complicated as this mode of communication might sound, the parties concerned were not in the least bit confused; to them, everything was crystal clear. In their hearts everything was as clear as a well-balanced account. Well-matched opponents, they moved with economy and precision, bending their wits to the challenge of the game. Every so often they would become momentarily dazzled and diverted by their own virtuosity, but they quickly reminded themselves of their true purpose. For pointless and childish as the game might seem, at its core lay a profound anguish. This anguish was for one’s own self as well as for the other; there was empathy and consideration in it, and yet also a relentlessness, because, after all, everyone always puts themselves first.
In truth, Kang Mingxun had discovered everything he needed to know about Wang Qiyao quite early; he was just good at keeping it to himself. The very first time they met, he thought she looked vaguely familiar. His suspicions were aroused when he found that she lived so reclusively and in such straitened circumstances, and the furniture in her apartment certainly spoke of an intriguing past. Living in this time of epochal change, Kang Mingxun was perceptive beyond his years and, wise in the ways of the city, was all too aware that people’s lives could be transformed in an instant. Peace Lane was a crevice in the city into which many fragmented lives had drifted. He saw shimmering behind Wang Qiyao an aura of splendor that belied her present ascetic life. One night, as they were playing mahjong, the lamp cast a shadow over her face; her bright eyes sparkling mysteriously in the darkness, she threw down her tiles with a lift of the eyebrows and a coy laugh. Somehow her expression reminded him of a screen diva from the thirties, Ruan Lingyu. Of course, Wang Qiyao was not Ruan Lingyu. . but who was she then? He didn’t know it, but he was teetering on the brink of discovering her secret.
Then, one day, passing a photographer’s shop with a picture in its window of a woman in bridal veil, he was immediately struck by a feeling of déjà vu. His mind raced back to another photograph that had hung in the same window long ago. If he had made the connection with Wang Qiyao at that moment, the riddle would have been solved; instead it slipped past. His interest in her seemed to intensify with every moment they spent together. He saw wrapped in her unadorned simplicity a rare beauty that infused everything around her with glamour; but in that austerity he also caught a glimpse of passion, and this too infused itself into her surroundings. Who was this woman? Kang Mingxun pined for the city’s vanished glory, of which only the trolley bell remained, and it saddened him every time he heard it ring. Wang Qiyao was like a mysterious shadow of that feeling; like a phantom that came and went unsummoned, she haunted him. He swore to himself that he would get to the bottom of this. I must uncover her past. . But where to look?
In the end the answer simply fell into his lap. One day, while chatting with “Mother,” the mistress of the house, and “Second Mother,” his father’s concubine and his own birth mother, that famous event of a decade earlier came up — the Miss Shanghai Beauty Pageant. His birth mother even remembered the name of the girl who came in third place — Wang Qiyao. To Kang Mingxun it was like suddenly awakening from a dream. Yes, those eyes that recalled Ruan Lingyu, the familiar image he had once seen hanging in the photo shop window, the “Proper Young Lady of Shanghai” featured in Shanghai Life, the rumors that she had later become the kept woman of some powerful man. . it all added up. There it was, the entire story of Wang Qiyao’s life, fantastic and poignant.