20 August 1916
All Saints’ Church
Sutton Courtenay, Berkshire
Beneath the night sky the churchyard is a mass of shadows. Imogen strides two paces before him though the ragged grass. Ashley’s shoe clips something hard and he nearly falls. Imogen stifles a laugh.
— Haven’t you been here before?
— We never came here, Ashley whispers. My mother had some aversion to the priest. I was baptized at Abingdon.
— Well, we’ve entered the graveyard. There’s no fence on this side. Mind the tombstones — some of them are quite short.
Ashley takes a final swig from the champagne bottle and pitches it into a clump of bushes. He does not need any more. He has no idea how much Imogen has drunk; for her it makes no difference. He quickens his step to catch up and they walk single file through the maze of lichen-covered headstones. Imogen is unafraid and speaking louder now.
— I had a lovely tour of the villages. Did you know there are German prisoners working the fields on the other side of the river, past the abbey? I tried talking to them—
— Not in German, I hope.
— Naturally in German. They were from Saxony, awfully nice fellows. They told me they’d prefer a month of harvesting to an hour back in the trenches. Said they hadn’t heard a women speak German in months. Of course, the guards overheard me and I spent a quarter of an hour convincing them I wasn’t a foreign agent. Gave them the name of every monarch since the Conqueror, I expect. Then I walked down to the church. The old sexton was cutting the grass here and he told me all kinds of bosh about the church’s history. He showed me something inside and I knew I had to show it to you.
As they approach the church Ashley sees the black mass of the nave, a square tower looming above.
— Are we meant to break in? I doubt they leave the door unlocked. And I don’t fancy being cashiered before I reach France.
— The door will be open, she calls back.
— It will not.
They follow the perimeter of the church toward the front entrance. As she walks Imogen runs her fingers along the rough walls, feeling for the gaps between each stone. They reach the front portal, an arched wooden door set at the tower’s base. Imogen puts her hand on the door’s iron ring. She smiles at Ashley.
— Do you trust in me?
— In nothing else.
Imogen turns the ring and pushes the door. It swings open with a creak.
— After you, Lieutenant.
It is dark in the nave. Only a faint shimmer of starlight passes through the stained glass above. They walk abreast of each other toward the altar, but they do not touch. By accident Ashley’s hand grazes hers and he reaches for her palm. She dashes away.
— I shan’t kiss you in a church. I may not believe in God, but I still fear him.
— And what are we here for?
Imogen reaches the altar, taking the steps in one stride. She plucks a ceremonial candle and tosses it underhand toward him.
— Catch.
Ashley puts up his hands to receive the candle, but her aim is wildly off and it bounces on the floor. He retrieves the candle and Imogen walks back down the center aisle toward the entrance. On her way she lifts a chair and carries it with her.
— This way.
Ashley follows dutifully behind her, the candle in his hand. Imogen sets the chair before the front portal and steps onto it.
— Light the candle, please.
Ashley strikes a match and at once the darkness recedes before the yellow flame. He lights the candle and passes it to Imogen. She holds the flame close against the beam that frames the top of the portal, running her hand over the dark wood.
— Here it is.
Ashley squints, but he sees only a beam of gnarled wood.
— The sexton said this is a perfectly typical fourteenth-century church. But even a typical church has its bits of interest.
She steps off the chair.
— Your turn, she says. Stand up.
Ashley takes the candle and holds it up to the beam. He sees the carvings now, thrown into sharp relief by shadows cast under the flame. They are crosses. Carved long ago upon the seasoned oak, there are square Greek crosses and Latin crucifixes, some finely wrought, others hewn crudely against the grain.
— Crusaders, Ashley murmurs.
Imogen repeats to Ashley what the sexton told her in the afternoon. She says that hundreds of years ago crusaders stopped at this very spot before they sailed for Constantinople. They knelt and prayed here, she says, and they heard a priest tell them they would go to God if they fell. They stood on a chair and carved the crosses before walking out of their last English church.
Ashley runs his hands along the indentations. Behind him Imogen draws a pocketknife from her bag and unfolds the blade. Ashley had not seen the knife until now.
— You’re damned theatrical, he says. You shan’t carve in that.
— It’s for you, Ashley.
— You’re joking.
Imogen shakes her head. — They were told they were Christ’s own army and still they stopped to carve these crosses, so that they would return.
— You’re mad. You shan’t carve in that.
— I want you to do it. Don’t you see, Ashley? It’s because they didn’t give a damn for God or heaven. They wished to see their wives and homes again. They wanted to drink and stay out all night as we have. That was why they carved. That they would come back.
— I can’t do that.
— I will do it for you, Imogen says, if you will not.
She drags another chair across the stone floor and rests it beside his. Imogen steps on the chair and plunges the knife into the beam, and with both hands she hacks up and down against the grain.
— Imogen, Ashley pleads. For God’s sake, it’s historical—
— We are bloody history!
She jerks the knife back and forth across the wood to make the horizontal bar of the cross. For a moment Imogen pauses and there is only the quick panting of her breath. Ashley puts his hand on the thin ivory knife handle. They begin to carve together, slowly at first, then with real effort.
— You’ll come back, she says. I can’t have been given you only to lose you so quickly.
Ashley takes his hand off the knife. He looks at Imogen.
— The war can’t last forever. They’re making a big push, I could be home by spring. We’ll go straight to the Valais and watch the snow melt down the mountains—
Imogen says nothing. She makes a few careful marks to finish the carving, fluting the ends of each cross. Then she lifts the candle closer to the beam to inspect her work. She blows the shavings from the carving and cleans the hollows with the blade.
Ashley grins. — You know, most of these fellows probably never came back.
Imogen refolds the pocketknife.
— It occurred to me. But you could be a better sport.
— Don’t be cross. I was a good sport.
They step down and Ashley replaces the chairs. Imogen stands in the doorway holding the candle. She looks away from the flame, her expression clouded.
— By the way, Ashley asks, how did you know the door would be open? Was that destiny again?
Imogen blows out the candle.
— No, she says. I bribed the sexton.
THE PICTURE
On their way back to Stockholm Karin and Christian drop me off at Arlanda Airport. I visit the ticket counter of several airlines, where I learn that the next flight to Paris costs nearly two hundred euros, far more than I ought to spend. Before I left California I transferred all of my savings into an account I could draw from in Europe; it added up to only $1,800 and I’ll have to make it last. But the flight leaves soon and I can’t waste time staying in Stockholm. I buy the ticket.