Even out of the mouths of religious leaders who claim they hate me, many still give me allegiance behind closed doors. Life is not black or white. It is defined by darkness and light…. This is why He separated them… Polarity is necessary. But, when people long solely for the darkness, they long to hide things. They do not want to bring things to light that will burn away; they want to conceal their true faces, hiding their snarls against God, but He knows. He allows all things to lie within the dark or the light or to move within or throughout the shadows… These are the hypocrites I use and prize most in your world. Many of these leaders use the folly of humankind as their platform upon which to lead multitudes of sheep to slaughter in one sense or another, but more so financially, mentally, and spiritually. These sheep see then the folly of humankind solely as my fault, placing the responsibility for their actions against God upon me when I have nothing to do with your freewill. That was given to you by Him, so how can I control it? I can influence it, but never control it. You have to be willing to turn power over to me for me to use you. Thus to blame is to give acclaim which I appreciate like any of your hollow-minded celebrities who love praise, yet they have no ability to make use of such power itself.
Doubt is my greatest weapon against you… I make you focus on the opposite of speaking to God, directly. Your belief system is flawed because you put more faith in the ritual of prayer than in the wisdom of it being a means of divine interaction with God. So, I further confuse you. I howl in your mind like wind separating your ears from the songs of birds who chirped long before you first opened your eyes and who will chirp long after you close them. These birds in your mind cry with the words of God. But, the blasts of wind I exert overpower your ability to hear. So many of you turn aside and stop praying, believing your prayers will never truly be understood or answered. A pray is not a wish… It is a request. Many demand of God, but they can not. It is like a child demanding anything from a true, strong parent. Ha! It is the mistake I made — and like a child I was punished… who knows if I had merely requested — prayed to God for my own realm to rule as His emissary, I would not be speaking to you now about eons of my battles with Him through you… I take prayer and turn the element of request that you are supposed to know is heard and make you question whether it has reached its mark and if it even matters to Him.
By me creating this great buffer of silence, I muffle you from hearing His response via signs and even through the voice of others of your kind. God speaks, but not always as a man, but through nature, introspect, dreams, images, and revelation. But, you ignore this and begin to believe that past and present prayers are never heard or go unanswered because no proof of an acceptance or refutation of the request to your response is evident. Your lack of patience is inviting and allows me to twist and manipulate signs which you at that point ignore or misinterpret. You may ask Him for help with a job in hard economic times. He may respond through a waitress telling you about an opportunity through a forum that discusses who is hiring in your field. But, I may make you look at her as a simple person, be distracted by her appearance, or simply block your ability to consider such a situation as a sign. Many times opportunities that are presented to you are actually answers from God that most of you ignore because you don’t see the potential value in them.
The funniest thing about you humans that I revel in is how you become virtually asphyxiated — starved of air — when it comes to feeling like the world is crashing down on your shoulders and you are condemned. And the problem is this often takes place when short, insignificant changes in your life seemingly appear to be adverse to your path to serve your own baser needs. Your fun is disrupted by real problems and you feel God has abandoned you when it is your own impatience and incompetence which makes you impotent to His response… All I do is steer you toward a journey deeper into your own self-induced doom. The sense of impending doom is rooted in feeling that your request is unreasonable. Once you question the validity of your prayer, you question the validity of yourself, your own definitions of need versus desire, and pride often takes precedence in your minds over humility. You demand a response of God as if God answers to you… Ha! He created you to be served, but never to demand anything… Even when you praise God with words and prostrations, you secretly in your hearts attempt to make deals or hold contempt for God, allowing me further access to your subconscious planting seeds of further seditious thoughts against Him.
With sedition comes rebellion… but fueling such rebellion can be difficult. The human mind is pliable, but always returns to its original state to accept and justify complete allegiance to God; therefore, to turn you to my will through prayers is based in introducing the sense of isolation in which you are cut off from God by your own perception. Here you believe that God does not respond because God doesn’t exist… this is a reward to my being; for if I can not turn you from him to me, I can turn you inward where you fail to see God within yourself and thus not see God outside of you… and so you assume there is no God — the highest form of pride and lowest form of destruction within any human… Reason within humankind is based on logic that is often shaped by irrational desire, thus it is not fact, but more of a personal fiction… Other than the highest forms of science which come close to actual universal logic which establishes absolutes with few anomalies, most of you practice a form of using your common sense to somehow promote a sense of self-pity. This self-pity is based on justification of what you are suffering from or missing. You then replace or rather overlook the lesson from God that is being presented to you along with some form or source of comfort or an answer to your problems and you become spiritual slothful and full of despair… You become stagnate in your progression toward God…
From the point of the prayer not being answered in a form or amount of time in which you seem fit, you begin to formulate a rather faulty and fanciful strategy as an alternative to praying. You in fact stop praying, whether over your food, at the sides of your bed, in a church, mosque, synagogue, or temple. You don’t even pray in the most unlikely of places…. Namely within yourself… by separating you from prayer, I separate you from directly speaking to Him. Alternative plans can turn to vice. A man seeks love… Loneliness drives him into depression. He prays for a companion — not out of lust, but just to share…. Yes, reasonable factors to place in a prayer to the God of all — but he does not receive a companion worthy of him or who is committed to him, so he devises a plan to simply sleep with numerous women, to hurt them emotionally, to take some form of blind vengeance upon the fair gender… or even consider losing his inhibitions and possibly his health and life in the curves and folds of a prostitute… He fails to see God’s love in himself and therefore fails to discover it in others who may stand before him and provide him companionship of spirit versus merely… the loins….