'Oh,' Alys said. She drew a quiet breath to steady her belly, which was quivering.
'None of them got out,' Lord Hugh said. 'A bad business. Hugo tells me he could hear them screaming, and then a dreadful smell of burned meat. Like a kitchen with a vexed cook, he said.'
'Are these letters to be sent today, my lord?' she asked. Her hand holding the candle beneath the sealing-wax shook badly, and she bodged the seal.
In the afternoon when the old lord rested she was supposed to sit in the ladies' gallery over the great hall and sew. It was a handsome room, the best in the castle. There was a wide oriel window looking out over the inner manse filled with clear and coloured panes of Normandy glass. The beams of the ceiling were brightly coloured: green, red, vermilion and the bright blue of bice. The walls were hung with bright tapestries, and where the wood showed it was panelled and carved with sheaves of wheat, fat lambs, bundles of fruit and goods, reminders of the wealth of the Lordship of Castleton. The doorway was carved with the heavy linenfold pattern which was repeated all around the room and on the window-seat before the oriel window, where Catherine could sit with a chosen confidante and avoid interruption from the others. There was a fireplace as good as the one in the nunnery and a square stone-carved chimney to take the smoke away so the air of the room was clear and the walls stayed clean. The floor had the dark shine of seasoned polished wood and was strewn with fresh herbs which gathered in heaps, swept around by the women's gowns. It was a long room, three-quarters the length of the great hall below it. Catherine's chamber was on the left at the far end, overlooking the courtyard through an arched window fitted with expensive glass. The women slept opposite her, looking out over the river through arrow-slits which admitted draughts and even snow when the wind was in the wrong direction. Next door to them was another small chamber, vacant except for lumber and a broken loom.
In winter, and for many days in the bad weather of autumn and spring, the women spent every hour from breakfast till darkness inside the four walls. Their only exercise was to go up and down the broad, shallow flight of steps from the great hall to the gallery for their breakfast, dinner and supper. Their only occupation in the winter months was to sit in the gallery and sew, read, write letters, weave, sing or quarrel.
Alys pretended she had extra work from Lord Hugh and stayed away whenever she could. She disliked the women's furtive, bawdy gossip, and she feared Lady Catherine, who never threatened Alys nor raised her voice, but watched all the women, all the time. The room was tense with an unstated, unceasing rivalry. In the long hours between midday dinner and supper served at dusk, while Hugo was out hunting, or sitting in judgement with his father, or riding out to collect his rents, or check the manor lands, the women might chatter among themselves, pleasantly enough. But as soon as Hugo's quick steps rang on the stone stairs the women straightened their hoods, smoothed their gowns, glanced at each other, compared looks.
Alys kept her eyes down. There was always sewing to be done in the ladies' gallery. An endless tapestry in twelve panels, which had been started by Lady Catherine's long-dead mother and willed to her daughter. Alys kept her eyes on her hands and stitched unceasingly when Hugo banged open the door and strode into the room. Since the first moment of seeing him Alys had never again looked directly at him. When he came into a room Alys went out, and when she had to pass him on the stairs she would press back against the cold stones, keeping her eyes down and praying that he did not notice her. When he was near her Alys could feel his presence on her skin, like a breath. When a door shut behind her, even out of her line of vision, she knew it was he who had gone out. She was tempted to look at him, she found her gaze drawn always towards him. She was fascinated to see whether his face was dark and silent, in his look of sullenness, or whether he was alight with his quick, easy joy. But she knew that when he was in the room Lady Catherine's gaze swept them all like a sentry on a watchtower. The least sign of interest by Hugo for any woman would be noted by Catherine and paid for, in full, later. Alys feared Lady Catherine's unremitting jealousy, she feared the politics of the castle and the secret, unstated rivalry of the ladies' gallery.
And she feared for her vows. More than anything else, she feared for her vows.
He paused once, while he was running lightly up the stairs as Alys came down, waited on the step beside her and put a careless finger under her chin, turning her face to the arrow-slit for light.
'You're beautiful,' he said. It was as if he were measuring her looks for fault. 'Your hair is coming through golden.'
Alys had a mop-head of golden-brown curls, still too short to fasten back so she wore her hair as a child, loose around her face.
'What age are you?' he asked.
She sensed the quickening of his interest, so tangible that she almost smelled it.
'Fourteen,' she said.
'Liar,' he replied evenly. 'What age?'
'Sixteen,' she said sullenly. She did not take her watchful eyes off his face.
He nodded. 'Old enough,' he said. 'Come to my room tonight,' he said abruptly. 'At midnight.'
Alys' pale face was impassive, her blue eyes blank.
'Did you hear me?' he asked, slightly surprised.
'Yes, my lord,' Alys said carefully. 'I heard you.'
'And you know where my room is?' he asked, as if that could be the only obstacle. 'In the round tower on the floor above my father. When you leave his room tonight, take the stairs upwards to me instead of down to the hall. And I shall have some wine for you, little Alys, and some sweetmeats, and some gentle play.'
Alys said nothing, keeping her eyes down. She could feel the heat of her cheeks and the thud of her heart beating.
'Do you know what you make me think of?' Hugo asked confidentially.
'What?' Alys asked, betrayed into curiosity.
'Fresh cream,' he said seriously.
Alys' eyes flew to his face. 'Why?' she asked.
'Every time I see you all I can think of is fresh cream. All I think of is pouring cream all over your body and licking it off,' he said.
Alys gasped and pulled away from him as if his touch had scorched her. He laughed aloud at her shocked face.
'That's settled then,' he said easily. He smiled at her, his heart-turning merry smile, and swung around and took the steps upwards two at a time. She heard him whistling a madrigal as he went, joyous as a winter robin.
Alys leaned back against the cold stones and did not feel their chill. She felt desire, hot and dangerous and exciting, in every inch of her body. She gripped her lower lip between her teeth but she could not stop herself smiling. 'No,' she said sternly. But her cheeks burned.
Alys knew she needed to see Morach and she had her chance that afternoon. Lord Hugh wanted a message taken to Bowes Castle and Alys offered to carry it. 'If I am delayed I shall stay the night with my kinswoman,' she said. 'I should like to see her for a little while, and I need some herbs.'
The old lord looked at her and smiled his slow smile. 'But you'll come back,' he said.