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“To a hot, explosive core “And, from this nucleus of restriction “Comes all manner of fissions, violent and slow “Breaking loose in brief expression “Of the tortures underneath “Crying for deliverance in the unbreakable code of jazz.” He smiled. “Unbreakable till now,” he said. “Rip bop doesn’t do it “Jump and mop-mop only cloud the issue “They’re like jellied coatings over true response “Only the authentic jazz can break the pinions of repression “Liberate the heart-deep mournings “Unbind the passions, give freedom to the longing essence “You understand?” he asked. “I understand,” I said, knowing why I came. Inside his room, he flipped the light on, shut the door Walked across the room and slid away a cloth that covered his machine “Come here,” he said I suspicioned him of hyping me but good His jazz machine was just a jungleful of scraggy tubes and wheels And scumpteen wires boogity-boogity Like a black snake brawl I double-o’ed the heap “That’s really in there, man,” I said And couldn’t help but smile a cutting smile Right off he grabbed a platter, stuck it down “Heebie-Jeebies; Armstrong “First, I’ll play the record by itself,” he said Any other time I bust my conk on Satchmo’s scatting But I had the crawling heavies in me And I couldn’t even loosen up a grin I stood there feeling nowhere While Daddy-O was tromping down the English tongue Rip-bip-dee-doo-dee-doot-doo! The Satch recited in his Model T baritone Then white man threw a switch In one hot second all the crazy scat was nixed Instead, all pounding in my head There came a sound like bottled blowtops scuffling up a jamboree Like twenty tongue-tied hipsters in the next apartment Having them a ball Something frosted up my spine I felt the shakes do get-off chorus in my gut And even though I knew that Mister Pink was smiling at me I couldn’t look him back My heart was set to knock a doorway through my chest Before he cut his jazz machine “You see?” he asked. I couldn’t talk. He had the up on me “Electrically, I’ve caught the secret heart of jazz “Oh, I could play you many records “That would illustrate the many moods “Which generate this complicated tongue “But I would like for you to play in my machine “Record a minute’s worth of solo “Then we’ll play the record through the other speaker “And we’ll hear exactly what you’re feeling “Stripped of every sonic superficial. Right?” I had to know I couldn’t leave that place no more than fly So, while white man set his record-maker up, I unsacked my trumpet, limbered up my lip All the time the heebies rising in my craw Like ice cubes piling Then I blew it out again The weight The dragging misery The bringdown blues that hung inside me Like twenty irons on a string And the string stuck to my guts with twenty hooks That kept on slicing me away I played for Rone, my brother Rone who could have died a hundred different times and ways Rone who died, instead, down in the Murder Belt Where he was born Rone who thought he didn’t have to take that same old stuff Rone who forgot and rumbled back as if he was a man And not a spade Rone who died without a single word Underneath the boots of Mississippi peckerwoods Who hated him for thinking he was human And kicked his brains out for it That’s what I played for I blew it hard and right And when I finished and it all came rushing back to me Like screaming in a black-walled pit I felt a coat of evil on my back With every scream a button that held the dark coat closer Till I couldn’t get the air That’s when I crashed my horn on his machine That’s when I knocked it on the floor And craunched it down and kicked it to a thousand pieces “You fool!” That’s what he called me “You damned black fool!” All the time until I left I didn’t know it then I thought that I was kicking back for every kick That took away my only brother But now it’s done and I can get off all the words I should have given Mister Pink Listen, white man; listen to me good Buddy ghee, it wasn’t you I didn’t have no hate for you Even though it was your kind that put my brother In his final place I’ll knock it to you why I broke your jazz machine I broke it cause I had to Cause it did just what you said it did And, if I let it stand, It would have robbed us of the only thing we have That’s ours alone The thing no boot can kick away Or rope can choke You cruel us and you kill us But, listen white man, These are only needles in our skin But if I’d let you keep on working your machine You’d know all our secrets And you’d steal the last of us And we’d blow away and never be again Take everything you want, Man You will because you have But don’t come scuffling for our souls.

Fritz Leiber, Richard Matheson, and Charles Beaumont—who follows here —form a sort of magic triangle of masters of the macabre moderns. All three live, currently, in the Los Angeles area: two are movie scriptwriters, the third, the son of a well-known actor. When the classic Leiber witch novel. Conjure Wife, was filmed in Britain a few years ago (under the even more classic Merritt title. Burn, Witch, Burn!) Matheson was one of the scenarists. Beaumont and Matheson have both worked on the recent gaggle of neo-Poe movies, Leiber and Beaumont ore, separately, authors of two of the finest and most fearfully “rear fantasies of modern city life I have ever read (“The Vanishing American” and “Smoke Ghost”).

Each of the three has written across the whole range of science fantasy, and well out of it; in fiction, essay, and dramatic farm; from vignette to book length. (Notable navels: Matheson’s I Am Legend; Beaumont’s The Intruder) Leiber’s The Wanderer.) All three were included in the first issue of Gamma, a new magazine of imaginative fiction, edited by William Nolan (author of “One of Those Days,” in the 8th Annual).

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MOURNING SONG

Charles Beaumont

He had a raven on his shoulder and two empty holes where his eyes used to be, if he ever had eyes, and he carried a guitar. I saw him first when the snow was walking over the hills, turning them to white velvet. I felt good, I felt young, and, in the dead of winter, the spring wind was in my blood. It was a long time ago.

I remember I was out back helping my daddy chop up firewood. He had the ax up in the air, about to bring it down on the piece of soft bark I was holding on the block, when he stopped, with the ax in the air, and looked off in the direction of Hunter’s Hill. I let go of the bark and looked off that way, too. And that’s when I saw Solomon for the first time. But it wasn’t the way he looked that scared me, he was too far away to see anything except that it was somebody walking in the snow. It was the way my daddy looked. My daddy was a good big man, as big as any I ever met or saw, and I hadn’t ever seen him look afraid, but he looked afraid now. He put the ax down and stood there, not moving or saying anything, only standing there breathing out little puffs of cold and looking afraid.