I had yelled and screamed and cried. It had changed nothing.
So why was I still here?
I turned around and snuggled against his side. His hand drifted under my shirt and palmed my breast. My back arched and I moaned when his fingers pulled on a hardened nipple. I just wasn’t sure anymore if it was a good thing or not that he knew me so well, knew what to do to arouse me with just a few caresses.
Fingers slid down my stomach and I opened my legs, eager to feel his touch. I was already wet, partly because I’d been waiting for this, partly because of the book I’d just read. Everyone kept making fun of my taste in books but I needed a little romance in my life. Okay, so the love scenes were great too.
His thumb pressed against my clit, my hips jerking up at the sudden caress.
“Noah!”
He chuckled, one long finger drifting further down until it entered me. He pumped it a few times, the thrusts too shallow to make me come but they were enough to make me start panting.
I turned so I was on my back and felt him move on top of me. He was already naked, his knee stretching my thighs apart.
And then he was there. He brushed the head of his cock against me, gathering moisture, covering himself with my own juices before he entered me in one long thrust.
My hands automatically wrapped around his biceps. My eyes closed even though the room was dark. I held on and opened myself to the pleasure he was giving me.
It was still good. He still took care of me and my needs. He just never kissed me.
Oh, he kissed my breasts from time to time, even the rest of my body. But his lips never met mine for one of his intense kisses.
And I missed those.
I really did.
So when Kade leaned above me the next day, I simply closed my eyes and let him kiss me.
It wasn’t bad. It was actually pretty good, but it felt weird to feel another man’s body against mine. I’d been in Noah’s arms only hours before after all.
“Did I read you wrong?”
I stepped back. “What?”
“I thought you wanted this.”
“I…did, I guess.”
“You guess?”
I shrugged and turned away. His hand clasped my shoulder and he forced me to face him once again. “I talked to Noah. He said you were okay with this.”
That’s when I felt my eyes pop out of my face. “Okay?”
He nodded. “Yeah. He said you’d discussed it last night. That you wanted me too so it was fine if we-” He stopped talking, his face hardening. “He lied to me, didn’t he?”
“Not exactly.” I ran my left hand through my hair, my very shaky hand. “He mentioned that you wanted to, ah, have sex with me, but I never agreed.”
“Fuck!” He erupted. His fist reached the nearest wall, making me jump. “I’m going to kill him! I’m going to-”
I shouted, “KADE!”
He took a deep breath and stared back at me. “Yes?”
“We’ve got twenty minutes before the sound check, right?”
He nodded.
“Let’s go then.” I grabbed his hand and tugged him out of the dressing room.
“Where are we going?”
“What do you think?”
I heard him gulp behind me but didn’t turn around. I was on a mission. Noah wanted me to fuck his friend, no problem. He said he was fine with it, that I was fine with it.
Well, FINE!
I pushed Kade against the wall of a dirty closet then dropped to my knees. Thank god I’d decided to wear jeans that morning, I told myself as I saw the state of the tiled floor. Yuck.
“What are you doing?”
“What do you think?” I repeated, earning myself a growl. Looking up at his blank face, I forced myself to calm down. “You want this or not?” Considering my hands were already busying themselves with his belt, I was pretty sure of his answer.
“Yeah but I hadn’t expected our first time to be like this,” he replied, eyeing our surroundings with apparent disgust.
That was sweet.
“It’ll have to do.” I pushed down his trousers and stared at his cock. I should have known he’d go commando. I’d heard enough about this thing of his over the past few months. Damned man was predictable after all.
And huge.
I never thought I’d see someone bigger than Noah. Well, there ya go. Two in the same band. What were the odds?
“Nice.” I grinned as I took him in my hand.
He moaned and his head thumped against the wall. Ouch, that must have hurt.
Didn’t seem to bother him though as his fingers raked through my hair. I bent down and licked his slit until pre-cum rolled over my tongue. Spurred by his obvious enthusiasm, I sucked in his head, my right hand moving up until it was cupping his balls. He growled, a loud noise that nearly made me look up in shock but his hands had tightened around the back of my head.
So I went back to what I’d been doing-giving Kade pleasure. I was going to make him come so loud everyone standing backstage would hear.
I wasn’t happy and I guess it showed. But it didn’t matter as long as the man looming above me left sated and happy.
And guess what? He did.
“Where were you?” Noah welcomed me back into the dressing room with a murderous glare.
I smiled, licked my lips and replied, “Sucking Kade off. What about you?” I watched as his mouth opened then shut. I grinned widely and sauntered back out of the room.
I’m pretty sure I won that round.
Chapter Two
A very sweaty Kade sat down next to me as our cramped tour bus sped along the dark streets of Toronto. For once we wouldn’t sleep in it however. We were actually going to a hotel. Everyone rejoice! “Stay with me tonight.”
I looked at him and shook my head. “I’m not sure that’s a good idea.”
“Do you really think sleeping in Noah’s room is a better idea?”
I stared at Noah, sprawled against the window, and sighed. After our little showdown that afternoon, he’d basically ignored me. Which irked me to no end!
What was the point of me doing all that if he didn’t even react?
But Kade’s point made sense. “You’re right. I’ll need to get my stuff first though.”
“Sounds good. I’ll take a shower in the meantime.”
I laughed as he wiped sweat off his forehead. “No kidding.”
“What? You don’t like sweat?”
“Not for what I have in mind, no.”
His eyes darkened. “Is that right? Can I know what you have in mind or will it be a surprise like earlier?”
I felt Noah’s gaze on us and leaned closer to Kade. “Mmm, I’m not sure I should tell you now.”
“Why not?” He breathed against my lips.
“It might turn you on and we don’t want that. Not here anyway.”
“I don’t see the problem. It’s not like there aren’t bunks out back.” He grinned.
I shook my head, thinking back to all the times we’d fooled around, Noah and I, in his bunk. Or mine. Argh! I had to stop doing this.
Kade’s mouth met mine, effectively interrupting my wandering thoughts. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed myself closer, enjoying the feel of his hard chest crushing my breasts.
It felt good to be kissed. It felt even better that he was doing it in front of everyone else.
“What the fuck are you doing here?” Noah asked as soon as I stepped inside his room.
“Not that it’s any of your business but I’m grabbing some of my stuff before meeting Kade in his room.”
“Grab everything while you’re at it.”
“I don’t think so,” I replied as I stepped past him. Rummaging through one of my suitcases, I made a point of pulling out the camisole set I knew he loved-or used to love. “I’m going to change. Don’t open the door,” I added as I stepped into the bathroom.