I don’t think I’ve slept much since. When I have, it’s only to awaken myself screaming with horrid dreams. I don’t know what toll this is taking on the baby, this, my grave worry for you.
I walk twice every day now, of each afternoon and evening. It’s so beautiful down by the river, I know you love this sort of quiet. Usually so quiet you can hear the breeze in the cottonwoods. A cool, shady place I go with my blanket. There’s a spot I’ll show you when you come back to me. A place I go to spread my blanket, sit and read all your letters again and again, mostly so our child can hear the sound of his father’s words, if not the sound of your voice.
For those long, hot hours each afternoon, it is a wonderful place to hide, reminding me of a place back in the hardwoods where Rebecca and I used to hide from Mummy when we were girls back home.
I don’t know how to tell you this, but I don’t feel like I have a home now, Seamus. I used to have one, but that was where I used to live when I was growing up. And then in Texas I vowed to cleave unto you. Ever since, you have been my home. But you are not here. So this is not my home. My home must be far, far away, so heavy is my heart.
Home is where you are, right now, holding this letter, reading my words. I wish I could tell you that everything is fine here, but it is not. Oh, the baby is doing well. And you would not imagine how big I am getting! But, ever since the news about Custer’s men, Laramie has become a somber place. Even gloomy. Such sad faces on all the men and especially the women.
Oh, how I wish you were here! You made me laugh so! You could chase away any dark, threatening clouds just by smiling at me with your gray eyes. How I need to see you smile with those eyes once again.
The more I think on it—and I have nothing but time to think—Crook was miraculously lucky to escape from the Sioux like he did on Rosebud Creek. Must have been more than luck, though, for I was praying that God watched over you. He did. And the rest were watched over with you.
What joy you brought me with that little telegram. And a week later came your letter, telling me all about that fight. Dear Lord—how horrible it must have been for that group of Royall’s soldiers to find themselves surrounded and cut off from all chance of escape! How brave were that man and the Shoshone scout you spoke of— the two who stood over the bodies of others who had fallen to the enemy’s bullets. How selfless and brave!
I’m just so thankful to God that nothing like that happened to you during that fight.
I am sure you have heard all the news of the disaster on the Little Horn. It’s all that anyone talks about. It’s all I can think about when the baby isn’t kicking and I’m not thinking about you. The only other news to tell you is that the Fifth Cavalry came through here recently. General Sheridan has ordered them north to the Black Hills where they will prevent warriors from going to join Sitting Bull and Crazy Horse. Their arrival, then their departure, was the biggest stir we’ve had here in a long time.
And you’ll never guess who I met. I could not really believe it, but it was him. Buffalo Bill Cody. Your old friend. Such a gentleman. We had a lovely talk about all that you have told me again and again, and how you showed me the Elephant Corral in Denver. He has been back east on the stage for a few years now, but told me he had to return west when the Indian war began. He asked all about you, and I told him what I knew—at least all I knew of you since Texas. Oh, you should see him, Seamus. He couldn’t be more proud to be scouting again for his old friends in the Fifth Cavalry.
As I looked at him, his long hair and mustaches and that finely tanned buckskin coat of his, I think of you. And in his smile I see you smile, happy to be doing what you love to do. Like Buffalo Bill Cody himself, riding out in front of some great army marching after the bloodthirsty savages who butchered General Custer and all his men. Yes, I studied him as we talked, thinking how alike you both were, the freedom and the wilderness, how in love you both are with your work.
For a short time this place really seemed like a fort, cavalry soldiers everywhere, going about their business with great urgency. Then it was quiet again, and every woman here had time on her hands again. So much time to think about a husband up there in Indian country with Crook.
When you return home to me, I will take you to this place where I write you my letters and read the letters you have sent me. It’s here I talk to the baby for hours on end, every afternoon and evening. It’s here I think on you.
Dear, I think on you when I wake each morning and when I lie in that bed alone at night. Remembering your touch. Remembering your kiss.
But here in the cool shade of this place, with the river gurgling past my hiding place, with the breeze in the branches overhead, it’s here I think most of you and never fail to ask God to keep you in the palm of his hand.
My prayer is to bring you home to us, Seamus. Come home as soon as you can. Come home to us.
Samantha
Magnitude of the Sioux War
CHICAGO, July 15—The Times’ Bismarck special says the impression prevails that the military authorities do not realize the work they have to do. The Indians’ hostile camps are believed to number at least ten thousand, and while there are many women and children, nearly all of these are effective in a campaign. There are certainly five thousand to seven thousand Indians who can and will fight until subdued; and the fate of Custer should be a warning that they intend to make thorough work, and have confidence in their ability to do it …
There are less than three thousand troops all told operating against the Indians, and nearly half of these are used in guarding wagon trains or supply depots, while there seems to be a disposition on the part of each command to win glory for itself without the aid of co-operating forces. Until more effective measures are taken you may look for continued disaster or an abortive campaign.
“You’ll see that I’m awakened at three-thirty—so I can awaken the colonel?” asked Lieutenant William C. Forbush, Wesley Merritt’s regimental adjutant.
Charles King answered, “Yes. You can count on me.”
King watched the young officer turn away, then stood for a moment more with Captain Mason. The pair of weary officers had just unfurled their blankets, preparing to catch a few hours’ sleep. But at that very moment up walked Forbush, stumbling in the dark over a fallen tree and creating quite a commotion as he scrambled back to his feet and dusted himself off, coming to deliver Merritt’s orders. Mason’s Company K was ordered to establish a forward picket post to the southeast, closest to the trail crossing.
“Why did Merritt choose K, Captain?” King whispered when the adjutant was out of earshot.
Mason wagged his head wearily. “I don’t know, Mr. King. We pulled picket duty last night, and you were up all night with Captain Hayes. Merritt must think we’re the best, even when we’re operating without much sleep—or he wouldn’t have chosen us.”
King wagged his head. “There is some small compensation, Captain.”
“What would that be?” Mason asked with a yawn.
“At least I’ll be the one to first see the enemy,” the lieutenant said. “Permission to select the men for the forward observation post?”
Julius Mason nodded. “Agreed. K will remain on duty to your rear once you have selected your spot.”
Choosing Sergeant Edmund Schreiber and Corporal Thomas W. Wilkinson, King left that reassuring circle of troops and horses behind where they had gone into bivouac beneath some bluffs that rose above the sluggish Warbonnet. Penetrating the inky, starlit darkness on foot, the trio groped their way forward as Mason went about posting his outflung pickets in the hollows and depressions they came across in the rolling landscape. By keeping to the low places those camp guards would be better able to discern objects against the night sky. What there was left of night, anyhow.