Worse, it is now beginning to feel physically sluggish. I have to work harder to make it respond to my imagined movements—as if it is fighting me.
If this is to be my last stand, the Widow seems as much my enemy as They are.
The signals surround me, darting along each ridge. The interference is increasing. The Widow is reacting intermittently to my neural commands, as if only some are getting through. As though the pathways are too crowded, and commands are jammed into too narrow a conduit. Or everything is confused because my instincts are conveyed in a newly foreign language.
I’m stumbling more than running; mechanical agility is gone. Now all I care about is putting distance between myself and those massing blood-red motes.
I want to head for higher ground to give myself some sort of tactical advantage. If they attack from above—firing into this cauldron of rock and ice—I will have no way to defend myself. Somehow, I need to force them into a funnel; to make them attack me from only one direction, or at least narrow the field of fire. I need to use the terrain to make that happen. If this is to be my last stand, the only way I can do that is to find a natural feature which prevents an attack from every side, and above. The apex of a couloir, or the top of a valley between ridges or spurs. I have to climb.
Servos are listless and unresponsive, allowing the malaise creeping across the Widow to fester.
I check the long-range transmitter on the Widow again, but still the interference is too great. Suddenly, the unthinkable occurs to me—what happens if I run out of power? I know my consciousness remains with the Widow, locked in a reserve power unit, using minimal power to maintain itself. That power could last for years, but if the suit is destroyed completely, including that tiny reserve unit, and there is no signal off-planet…
Will I die forever? Or will they somehow replicate my consciousness and place me into another Widow? Am I saved? Backed up like some artificial intelligence? A true machine. It has never mattered before—I have never before lost contact.
Suddenly, I wonder who I really am.
I am climbing feverishly now, a new fear burning inside me. My unknown future is a fog concealing a vast abyss beneath my feet, each step taking me closer to an endless, desolate void.
I thought I would welcome true death if it ever came—respite from this relentless war. But now, I am afraid.
I stop dead when I see him.
For a moment, what I see standing there in front of me makes no sense. I cannot move. All I can do is stare.
It’s a boy.
He is no more than a young teenager, perhaps fourteen or fifteen. In his hands he clutches a rifle; a pistol and a knife are tucked into his belt. His heart is beating fast—I can see a holographic representation of it and a list of vital signs scrolling to one side of my vision. He is afraid.
I can see he has radiation sickness, but it has been controlled by medication. Cancerous growths have eaten away at some of his internal organs, but they are not currently spreading. He is malnourished, but otherwise fit.
His dress confuses me. He is clothed in thick wool trousers, boots, a thick jumper and a scarf wrapped around his neck. Over all that is a long coat. All of it is dirty and somewhat ragged; well used, but cared for.
He does not have the appearance of a slave, or a prisoner.
The rifle comes up, but it is far too slow and languid. Even in this state, a Widow is quicker—the neural pathways carry the electrical and chemical signals more swiftly than a human body can and the servos and gears augment the speed of my movements. I reach out and, simultaneously, edge to one side. A metal fist closes around the forestock of the rifle; I feel the vibrations of the bullet as it spirals through the barrel and explodes out of the muzzle at more than a thousand metres per second. It surges past my face, spinning in the air and cutting its deadly path, before it is gone.
I pull easily, ripping the rifle away from him.
I cannot understand why he has fired on me; why he would attack me at all. Across the colonies, Widows are renowned, legendary even. We are all that stands between the human race and its extinction. We are told of Widows’ successes—of missions that have freed thousands, if not tens of thousands, of human lives. These reports add to our own. Whilst their weapons of war are also machines, they look nothing like Widows. This boy should know what I am. All of humanity knows what I am.
Yet he is already scrambling back, reaching for the pistol. Why? my mind screams to me. What are you doing? I am not the enemy!
The pistol is unlikely to penetrate the strongest parts of my armour, but there are weak points in every carapace. I cannot risk failure because of a misunderstanding borne of fear and desperation.
I strike the boy once across the face. It sickens me to do it, but I have to put him down. My fist opens up a gash across his cheekbone and fractures it. The tiny fissures appear in my vision—X-rays of the bone beneath the bloodied skin. He stumbles and falls, head turning away and dropping quickly; his legs crumple beneath him and I know he is unconscious.
What now? My mind is racing. The signals are closing in on me, but I cannot leave this boy behind. It will drain more of my power reserves to carry him—perhaps an extra fifteen percent to haul the sixty kilos over my shoulder. I will move more slowly, and react more sluggishly to threats, with that burden. Yet, I cannot leave him here. Somehow he escaped captivity. Found clothes and weapons—how, I do not know and cannot fathom—but to leave him here would be to erase the success of that defiance, and condemn him either to a very real death, or many more years of servitude. He does not deserve that.
I reach down, gently slip my arm around his waist, and lift him over my shoulder. I know that this action alone might lead to his death, and my failure, but I cannot leave him. I sling the rifle too—if I tear the trigger guard away, I can fire it—and then I run.
The signals are close now, a noose tightening around my neck, and there is only one way through. A small gap in the snare which is closing around me. No—us. I’m not alone anymore, and for a moment I draw some comfort from the human contact and the renewed sense of purpose it brings me. If I can get him to the other Battle Group, then my mission will not have been a failure. Saving even one precious life is a success and now it is all I care about.
A reason not to die.
The boy stirs and lets out a soft moan. When he wakes, he will struggle. I don’t understand why—what threat he sees in me—but I have to assume he will continue to misunderstand who is now carrying him over a shoulder. I am running as quickly as my power levels will allow, glancing all around me. I want to ensure that no projectile fired at me can hit the boy, so, as I run, I analyse line-of-sight trajectories and shift his weight left and right to minimise the risk he might be hit. It’s a small percentage tactic, but I do it anyway.
I hear him cry out, and I know he’s awake.
“I’m not going to hurt you,” I say to him, but the Widow’s voice is hollow and metallic—a device for the communication of words, not emotion or tone as human vocal cords would be capable of. It sounds like a machine, because that’s what it is. There is nothing comforting about it, and I know it might even deepen the boy’s fear.
He shouts again and struggles. I am stronger than he—a bioengineered marriage of servos and gears and armoured alloy—but I have to be careful. I do not have a supercomputer for a brain, and it is possible that I will overcompensate and he will escape. Or I’ll undercompensate and I’ll break a bone or snap a tendon.