What I’m listening to: Pop Goes the World (the babies like it!) Men Without Hats
What I’m reading: Bill Cosby’s ‘Fatherhood’ – hilarious.
What I’m watching: The Running Man with Arnold Schwarzenegger
P went to the nursery today and bought us a few trees and plants. He’s trying to make the house as homely as possible for us. I hope he is not missing his old life (his wife).
I’ve never really been interested in gardening but we worked a bit together today – I just planted some flowers and watered, really – and I enjoyed it. (Petunias? Pansies?) I think I’ll spend some more time in the garden. It’s a nice break from taking care of the twins.
They are doing really well. Me, less so. In the beginning I didn’t mind the sleep deprivation too much but I think it’s building up now. It is starting to impact on my mood, and my memory. And my day-to-day functioning: I do ridiculous things like put the teabag canister in the fridge. The other day I answered the front door with my shirt unbuttoned! I don’t know who was more embarrassed, me or the neighbour! My God I would do anything for a full night’s sleep. Amazing what we take for granted! Sometimes I just get one of the twins to sleep and the other one starts crying and wakes up the other, then the other way around, and I just want to sink to the floor and cry.
They are both good eaters. Thank God. Sometimes I feel like I’m a walking, talking (leaking!) boob. Sam is a frowny, focused feeder, who goes in with closed eyes and gets the job done. Kate, always hungry, starts off quickly but then takes her time. She stares at me with her big slate-grey eyes and I hope that she can feel how much I love her.
They have very distinct personalities, even at this age. Sam is serious and independent and seems to always be thinking about something, working something out in his head. I’d love to know what babies think about. And Kate is always smiling and likes being with people. They seem to get on with each other, too, which is great. Hope it carries on that way!
Sometimes strangers stop us to look at the babies, say how cute they are, ask who is the ‘oldest’, say they look like me, or if P is with us, that they look like him.
I tell myself every day how lucky I am. I look in the mirror, at my pale skin and the dark circles under my eyes, and smile. I’ve learned to put on a good smile.
A GOOD VIEW, TOO
13
Johannesburg, 2021
Seth is sipping a coffeeberry shot at his local barista when an Echo.news story flickers on his tickertape. He clicks to listen to the audio version, which automatically streams to his earbuttons.
“In breaking news, William Soraya, South Africa’s gold medallist sprinter and media darling was this morning severely injured in a skycar accident. Soraya, known as ‘Bad Bill,’ who is no stranger to adrenaline pursuits (or front-page news), was flying the new Volantor StreetLegal plug-in hybrid car as a publicity stunt for the corporate, who are ‘deeply distressed’ about the accident, and have begun an intensive investigation.
‘We have tested and re-tested this new model and were 100% certain that it was safe to fly. We have no idea what could have gone wrong, but we will find the reason behind this terrible tragedy,’ said Mohale Mhleka, the Volantor spokesperson.
Despite the low number of uptake, the fatalities due to skycars and hover-cars are numerous and on the rise. Various groups are lobbying for the skycar to be banned, including a 2000-strong protest outside the Union Buildings this morning, with a further 6000 citizens adding their presence online.’
‘Look, it’s something we’re going to have to get right,’ said Solly Ngubane, the Minister of Transport. ‘We mustn’t shy away from technology. We must embrace progress. When motorcars were first introduced there were also a great deal of accidents. This episode was unfortunate. We have to take a hard lesson from this, look forward and make this mode of transport the safest we possibly can.’ In the mean time, Ngubane has promised a task team to launch an official enquiry, and committed to flying his own Volantor every day for a month, to prove his faith in the product.
‘Last year Soraya made news for breaking the national record for both the 100m and 200m sprint, as well as for his notorious partying, womanising, and more than one incident of road rage. He was also accused of ‘resping’ or ‘respirocyting’: injecting robotic red blood cells to improve his performance, but was cleared of the charge after undergoing vigorous testing. Ironically, he may now undergo respirocyte treatment in order to speed up his healing.
Soraya is in the ICU of an undisclosed private hospital. He has broken bones, including both tibulae or shin-bones, and internal bleeding; his spinal cord is swollen, but intact. His PR manager says that his condition is serious, but stable. As the Minister said today: “The hearts and minds of South Africans everywhere are with William Soraya, and we wish him a speedy recovery”.’
Fuck, thinks Seth. He had always kind of identified with Soraya. They were the same age. They lived a similar lifestyle, although Seth preferred to be in the shadows, rather than the limelight. He gets that fluttering cold feeling again, almost like a premonition that a similar fate awaits him. He shakes himself out of it. He has got to pull himself together, up his game. Put his plan on fast-forward. He sends Fiona a bump. Acts cooler than he feels.
SD> What are you wearing?
FB>> LOL! Naughty. *blush*
SD> Send me a pic.
FB>> NO!!
SD> I want 2CU.
FB>> In meeting, in meetings all day. Yawnerz!
SD> Take 1 under the table. No 1 will eva know.
If he can get prudish Fiona to sext him it will be a very good sign. It would mean that – apart from getting to see her knickers – she is, to a certain extent, under his spell.
FB>> LOL I can’t!! Very NB meeting. Boss is presenting w/Serious Face.
SD> Killing me.
She goes quiet for a while, and he thinks she’s probably put her phone away to concentrate on the meeting. He pictures her, sitting up straight, blushing slightly, just-sharpened pencil at the ready, nodding sagely at her fellow colleagues. But he’s wrong, and his Tile buzzes with an image.
Yes please, he thinks, picking it up and sitting back into his chair, admiring it. A chocolate brown lace affair. Teal trimmings. Excellent. A good view, too: she would’ve had to open her legs wide to take it. Despite not finding her particularly attractive, he feels a twinge in his pants and moves to adjust himself.
Thundercats are go.
Kirsten is at her apartment, touching up the aquarium pictures, when James comes home. She is relieved to have a break; her eyes feel scratchy, overworked. She saves the huge 4DHD RAW TIFF file that she has been working on and is about to shut down when she feels a warm hand on her back, then another on her chest. She looks up, smiling, but the smile is wasted on James.
His mouth is on hers; he snaps the cover of her Tile down. His hand moves to her right breast; she feels her nipples harden. She begins to stand up, but he puts his arms underneath her and picks her up, carries her to bed. Throws her down. She laughs, reaches to unbutton him, but he stops her, pushes her back. She can tell he is angry with her. There is rare passion in his face, but it’s shadowed with anger. This is going to be bossy sex, one of her favourites.