I would put the memory right after the knowledge in order of importance. Many of my mistakes were made because I either deliberately blocked access to some knowledge, or I got lost in myself so much that there was almost no room in my mind to “load” data from memory. Alas, I understand why Thao said that “men easily forget”…13
In early childhood, I could not pronounce the sound “r”. I remember lying on the bed in the village house and trying to learn how to pronounce this sound. I was persistent in my attempts and finally I was able to growl like a lion. Could I find the reason for the speech stammer if I remembered my childhood success? Given that back in school I realized how I simply could not speak with stutters when I was alone and spoke aloud to myself, anything is possible.
So, for example, I once firmly decided that I would get rid of planetophobia when I started watching a scientific broadcast about black holes on television. I focused on reality and took the visual image for what it really was. The phobia was gone, and since then I do not remember about planetophobia when reading or watching a video about space objects.
Further, when I met Marina, I realized that I could try to find a girlfriend matching my interests in Russia and emigrate to another country with her if we got married. There was a choice.
Then I remembered how in childhood I courted a village friend, seeking her liking me back. Then I firmly walked towards my goal, and I was not shy about anyone and was not afraid of anything. It felt like I was what we could call an “alpha male”. So, what happened then? I allowed negative incidents to block almost everything positive in my life – I forgot.
For myself, I divided this knowledge into active and inactive. The knowledge gained is stored in your Astral body, but whether you can remember it depends on how well you trained your memory, and on some other factors.
Memory is an interesting thing. I often had moments when I woke up in the morning and thought that I had no dreams at night. In fact, I was thinking about something else. But then I went outside and saw something that immediately reminded me of the dream that I never knew I had that night. I assume that deja vu happens in a similar way. We recall something when one of our senses discovers something related to the stored information in our Astral body. Of course, if we polluted our brain with something else, then it may not get the necessary information from the soul for us.
As far back as nineteen years old, I noticed that whenever I relaxed and focused on reality, my memory of past events was restored. Lessons learned also became very clear in the head.
Therefore, you should not block the information that seems negative to you, since you only postpone your education that leads to you making the right choices and, accordingly, to happiness.
This applies to all people and other creatures – regardless of the “savagery” of their actions. And yes, the same applies to those who commit suicide – in my difficult times I was looking for a relief, a benefit for myself in this erroneous action that will not save a person from the lessons that he must learn at school of life, but only add another mistake to the collection of that person.
Once people learn, for example, the Universal Law that people should suffer for all their mistakes, many of them will stop committing the actions that they know, or believe, are wrong.
From what Thiaooubians taught us in Thiaoouba Prophecy book, it is clear that the Superior Intelligence did not want to have bad feelings, the Spirit only wanted good sensations. Therefore, the Spirit created the 9 filters in the form of nine Higher Selves which filter all the sensations that we experience during our lives. Since we are all part of the Superior Intelligence, it is logical that each of us also wants to have only all that is good – that is, what we consider good and right for ourselves in the present situation that we are in, in accordance with our present material and spiritual knowledge.
Speaking of the Spirit and unwillingness to harm oneself, this is one of the most important reasons why the Superior Intelligence created the Universe with a clear and concrete plan. Being intelligent, the Spirit could not “play dice” when creating the world, since not knowing the result from his universe could harm him. Ignorance does not eliminate the consequences of an error. An example is a child touching a hot stove.
It follows that all of our next lives that we will live are also known.
I often had a question about the fact that after previewing their possible life with the Higher Self, people have a choice: to agree or refuse to live the life shown.
But what if, for example, a soul decided to be born in the body of a woman who was to have a baby at an early age, with whom they would live in close contact all their lives. They had to find out very early that they were sisters in the past life, and this knowledge would influence what choices both people would make, and as a result they would be able to gain some spiritual knowledge. What if the soul, which in the previous life was the second sister, refused to be born in the body of the child? This would mean that the woman would have to live a life that she did not choose, which would not be fair.
Therefore, I believe that I am right in my thoughts that all the choices we will ever make are already known – even those choices that we make with the Higher Self, agreeing or refusing to live the offered life.
My thoughts led me to the following definition of spirituality: Learning to make decisions that will benefit oneself without negative effects for other creatures that have a part of the Superior Intelligence in them.
Until now, I could not find a refutation of this theory. I can cite myself as an example. I am writing this book because I know that it would be a mistake not to share my knowledge and experience with the public. How can I hope to be born on a planet of the second category if I am not ready to say goodbye to my fears and help other people? I am writing this book to try to help others, because I know that this will help me. The knowledge and experience gained, parting with serious mistakes, all this will bring me closer to the planet of the second category, where I will have to suffer less.
Of course, when walking to the mountain, you need to overcome many associated obstacles, and in spiritual development you also need to experience a lot of things before a new spiritual height is reached.
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Returning to my life, I thought that when meeting a girl, I needed to tell her about my life experience as soon as possible in order to save both my and her time. But I realized that it is also not worth dumping everything at once.
I will say that I never liked the topic of “pickup” because of the lies to girls, which leads to the fact that girls begin to beware of normal guys who want normal, human relationships. I only read their site once for widening my knowledge, and I was surprised by a girl’s comment who wrote how her boyfriend “used on her” one of the pickup phrases from that site. She already loved him and forgave him. However, perhaps they really found their ideal half this way. Who knows?
Unfortunately, even though I tried to take a walk from time to time, I could no longer find a girl who would agree to give me a chance. Moreover, I again allowed myself to withdraw into myself, which entailed a memory lock and subsequent repetition of errors. Because of this, I again had problems with tension and facial expressions.
There were girls whom I wanted to approach, but did not dare, because it was clear in what condition I was and what the answer would be when they examined me better.
Due to deteriorated well-being, I had to sit at home most of the autumn, and then the cold came. There were less people on the street. I was thinking about getting to know girls in shopping malls, but I never had time to go to them.